It was a little over two years ago when things finally clicked for me. I remember walking to my parking garage around 7:30am, looking at the skyline from my cute midtown apartment thinking “Holy shit! Is this it?Is this my life? High school,college,corporate job and that’s it?Show is over?”. I started thinking to myself about all the things I said I wanted to do. All the dreams I hadn’t attempted to make a reality.I never attempted to write, even though it was something I really enjoyed. I hadn’t started my own business yet.I hadn’t traveled enough. I hadn’t taken any risks and here I was walking to a job that paid well, but I absolutely hated. I was falling into a dark place.My entire life was dedicated to becoming a doctor, a decision I made when I was 17. I had gotten accepted into an amazing graduated school,had a position at one of the best hospitals, and I was MISERABLE. I’m sure from the outside looking in it appeared that life was going as planned but I felt suffocated. What my family,society, and even the people close to me had expected of me wasn’t what I truly wanted to do and I felt so trapped. I started thinking about all the opportunities I skipped out on ,out of fear of what other people would think. I got so caught up in keeping up with an image of myself that wasn’t really me. Trying to live a life that others deemed as successful. So we got the fancy stuff. The nice cars, the nicer handbags, the nice condo, everything you work towards thinking that once you get it you’ll feel like you “made it”,but it didn’t matter. At the end of the day I wasn’t happy. “Things” were not enough. So as scary as it was, I took a risk. I quit and focused on what I could do to make myself truly happy. Here we are two years later with 165,000 blog subscribers 😩🙈(pause so someone can pinch me),hosting events, creating dope shit with likeminded people,writing,creating content for some of my favorite brands, and this is just the beginning. Aside from that,some of you have reached out and told me about your own experiences.We’ve shared stories, checked on one another and I’ve even watched some of you start your own journey. The fact that I’ve had a positive impact on ANYONE is the best feeling ever.Helping out other people is really all I’ve ever wanted to do in life.
I’d be lying if I said it’s been easy or I haven’t had moments where I’m tempted to go back to my cushy corporate job.
The first day I didn’t get any orders from the online boutique I panicked! I started doubting myself.Pacing around my place like “ I knew it! I knew it wasn’t going to work!This is crazy!”.
I’ve been told “no” by a million companies before I finally heard a “yes”. My first hosting event seven people showed up. My first commission check from affiliate marketing couldn’t cover my water bill and it’s ALL GOOD because it was all apart of the process and things like this take more work than anyone is willing to admit. Every day is a hustle and for once in my life I don’t have a plan. All I know is, the second I stopped listening to that voice in my head that said “I can’t”…the second I stopped considering what other people would think of my decisions, the moment I quit playing the comparison game and focused on myself,life became enjoyable again and the opportunities just started flowing.
So many doors have opened because I finally decided to stop being afraid and work towards a life I wanted.People will always have something to say but I guarantee you once you start doing whatever it is your passionate about like-minded people will come into your life and remind you that you’re not crazy and you’re fully capable. Why not you? Why can’t we all be people who are happy with what they do for a living? If you want to make music, do it! Want to move to L.A or New York?DO IT! Want to start your own business? Flip some shit on EBay and boom!There’s your starter money. Whatever it is you want to do, do it for you. Life really is short and time is precious. We have Trump in office for Pete’s sake,Anything is possible! 😂
Whatever you want from the universe DECLARE IT! Speak it into existence! Work your ass off and don’t worry about how it may come, believe in yourself and know that it WILL COME! As much work as this has been, I don’t regret it for a second. I’m going to be able to look back on life and really feel like I gave it my all so if it means looking “crazy” or living an “unconditional lifestyle” I’m okay with it because I’m happy.I have no idea where this journey is going to take me and for once I’m okay with that. So far nothing in life has went as planned so what do we really have to lose? Thank you guys! 165,000 might not seem like a lot to other people but to me it’s HUGE and I’d be lying if I said it didn’t make me a bit teary eyed. I’m going to play Cardi B and keep it G though 😂. Thank you for going on this journey with me and for the continuous support. Your messages mean the most. I’m so excited for what the future holds ♥ love love love y’all! Xoxo-K